Anonymous asked:I think people's apprehension about this whole situation arises from the fact that you're kinda one of the only good jerrie smut writers around here anymore and they're just kinda sad that you won't be posting jerrie as much. So I know most of them are being jerks about it, but it can also be taken as a compliment in a way because people love your writing with jerrie and just want to see more of it! :)
To be honest, I think my smut kind of sucks, and it’s going to be suckier if I have to force myself to write it. I really don’t want to let anyone down, and it feels like I am since a few people have objected to my other ship (but it’s okay for people to ask me to write theirs, which I have no problem with, I mean I did say I’d take a couple of requests for other LM ships, it just seems kind of hypocritical and like there’s a double standard, y’know? Like ‘post what we want but not what you want’ or something). I didn’t want to cause any drama, and it kind of feels like I have, I’m just excited about another ship and writing for it, because there’s literally nothing for it at the moment. I’ll be posting the same amount of Jerrie regardless of whether I write Dade smuts or not (which I’m pretty sure I will be, it’s something for myself), so people don’t need to worry about that. It’s not like the reason I haven’t been writing much Jerrie is because of my new ship, it’s because of my lack of inspiration. But if Jerrie shippers are going to be rude (probably unintentionally, since it’s easy to come across that way over the internet), I’m going to lack motivation to write for them even more, you know? I mean, I don’t HAVE to write smut, I can quite easily go back to just reading fanfiction. I started writing smut because it was fun, and once all of the fun’s sucked out, I’m out. I’m at a point in my life where I back away and get out of things that make me miserable or upset on any level, I don’t need that in my life, I honestly have enough mental/health problems so I’m not gonna add unwanted and unnecessary stress to it. Maybe I’ll try to take it as a compliment, thanks for helping me try to look on the bright side of it, lovely :) I really hope this long ass reply doesn’t come across as petty or bitchy or dramatic, because I’m just trying to state my side of everything :) (Also I’m super sensitive so I get offended/upset easily :P).